Wow.. I haven't blogged in a long while.. Even an angel reminded me of this the other day. It's mostly due to writer's laziness.. Thinking more than writing but actually thinking about writing... *smile* Nevertheless, it's like this...Sometimes I use this space to workout problems, issues, thoughts that seem to flood my mind. Lately, I haven’t had a lot of issues. I’ve been more focused on just simply enjoying each day as it comes and capturing each moment as it comes, either with camera or in memory with a smile. I’ve had a lot of reasons to smile in recent years because of my love. Though of course, sometimes there’s those unexplainable moody moments that are like trip wires. You stumble head first into frustation wondering “what happened now?” and/or “what can be done to instantly make this better?” I just always feel like life is too short. Why not spend time on what is real and trying to achieve the best that life has to offer- together. Five years goes by so fast that it feels like one year. Ten years? Twelve years?? I can remember when it was 2000 and we worried so much about world issues and it feels like so much of my life passed me by. Right now is a great time personally and I want to keep building what is the love I've been looking for since I became an adult and dreamed of love. I think about the future now in more important ways. I research and plan so that WE can do amazing things together. I never think as "I" or "me." This journey is about us/we and I've got plans that I hope to achieve. Money is a worry because the work place at times can be strange but nevertheless, I feel like when your heart is in the right place, things will workout in your favor. I learned that thru experience when I used to give so much to situations that weren't good for me. Situations where nothing was ever given back, materially or otherwise. I mean, this is both funny and pathetic to me now but I can remember when I was asked to buy the card that someone wanted to give to me so that they could write something "nice in it." I was dumb enough to buy it but still never received it. That moment was typical of the kind of give and take that I got used to from about three different situations. But my heart was in the right place, so I was told and because of that, one day I'd be blessed, just because.. Thing is, I never did anything with the intention of being blessed.. I simply do what's in my heart... and my heart is full now so I wish to do a lot! That’s what I always want and strive for…. and have wanted to strive for during the last 20 years or so... again, life is short and this journey is going fast....faster. That's why I love and look forward to saying I do, I will, always and forever... I miss the days apart so when the days are here, I wish them to be perfect in every way, without allowing outside pressures and influence to cloud the moment.. That's why one tries to find a special place to escape from the world because today's world is so unkind. People get behind the wheel and become angry. People look so angry as they walk to get where they're going. That's why you look to the heavens and thank God for what you have and for who you are blessed with.. This is no easy journey but it's still been fun... and definitely more fun to have in the future for as long as you're blessed with life...